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Soul
Nourishment First
By: George Muller
It has
please the Lord to teach me a truth, the benefit of which I have not lost,
for more than fourteen years. The point is this: I saw more clearly than
ever that the first great and primary business to which I ought to attend
every day was, to have my soul happy in the Lord. The first thing to be
concerned about was not how much I might serve the Lord, or how I might
glorify the Lord; but how I might get my soul into a happy state, and
how my inner man might be nourished. For I might seek to set the truth
before the unconverted, I might seek to benefit believers. I might seek
to relieve the distressed, I might in other ways seek to behave myself
as it becomes a child of God in this world; and yet, not being happy in
the Lord, and not being nourished and strengthened in my inner man day
by day, all this might not be attended to in a right spirit. Before this
time my practice had been at least for ten years previously, as an habitual
thing, to give myself to prayer, after having dressed myself in the morning.
Now, I saw that the most important thing I had to do was to give myself
to the reading of the Word of God, and to meditation on it, that thus,
my heart might be comforted, encouraged, warned, reproved, instructed;
and that thus, by means of the
Word of God, while meditating on it, my heart might be brought into experiential
communion with the Lord.
I began
therefore to meditate on the New Testament from the beginning, early in
the morning. The First thing I did after having asked in a few words the
Lord's blessing upon his precious Word, was to begin to meditate on the
Word of God, searching as it were into every verse, to get blessing out
of it; not for the sake of preaching on what I had meditated upon, but
for the sake of obtaining food for my own soul. The result I have found
to be almost invariably this, that after a very few minutes my soul has
been led to thanksgiving, or to intercession or to supplication; so that,
though I did not, as it were, give myself to prayer, but to meditation,
yet it turned almost immediately more or less into prayer. When thus I
have been for a while making confession or intercession, or supplication,
or have given thanks, I go to the next words or verse, turning all, as
I go on, into prayer for myself or others, as the Word may lead to it,
but still continually keeping before me that food for my own soul is the
object of my meditation. The result of this is, that there is always a
good deal of thanksgiving, supplication, or intercession mingled with
my meditation, and then my inner man almost invariable is even sensibly
nourished and strengthened, and that by breakfast time, with rare exceptions,
I am in a peaceful if not happy state of heart. Thus also the Lord is
please to communicate unto me that which, either very soon after or at
a later time, I have found to become food
for other believers, though it was not for the sake of the public ministry
of the Word that I gave myself to meditation, but for the profit of my
own inner man.
The
difference, them, between my former practice and my present one is this:
Formerly, when I rose, I began to pray as soon as possible, and generally
spent all my time till breakfast in prayer, or almost all the time. At
all events I almost invariably began with prayer, except when I felt my
soul to be more than usually barren, in which case I read the Word of
God for food, or for refreshment, or for a revival and renewal of my inner
man, before I gave myself to prayer. But what was the result? I often
spent a quater of an hour, or half an hour, or even an hour, on my knees,
before being conscious to myself of having derived comfort, encouragement,
humbling of soul, etc., and often, having suffered much from wandering
of mind for the first ten minutes, or a quarter of an hour, or even half
an hour, I only then began really to pray. I scarcely ever suffer now
in this way. For my heart, first being nourished by the truth, being brought
into experiential fellowship with God, I then speak to my Father and to
my Friend ( vile
though I am, and unworthy of it) but the things that He has brought before
me in His precious Word. It often now astonishes me that I did not sooner
see this point. In no book did I ever read about it. No public ministry
ever brought the matter before me. No private intercourse with a brother
stirred me up to this matter. And yet, now since God has taught me this
point, it is as plain to me as anything, that the first thing the child
of God has to do morning by morning is, to obtain food for his inner man.
As the outward man is not fit for work for any length of time except we
take food, and as this is one of the first things we do in the morning,
so it should be with the inner man. We should take food for that, as every
one must allow. Now, what is the food for the inner man? Not prayer, but
the Word of God, and here again, not the simple reading of the Word of
God, so that it only passes through our minds, just as water runs through
a pipe, but considering what we read, pondering over it, and applying
it to our hearts. When we pray, we speak to God. Now, prayer, in order
to be continued for any length of time in any other than a formal manner,
requires, generally speaking, a measure of strength or godly desire, and
the season, therefore, when this exercise of the soul can be most effectually
performed is after the inner man has been nourished by meditation on the
Word of God, where we find our Father speaking to us, to encourage us,
to comfort us, to instruct us, to humble us, to reprove us. We may therefore
profitably mediate, with God's blessing, though we are ever so weak spiritually;
may, the weaker we are, the more we need meditation for the strengthening
of our inner man. Thus there is far less to be feared from wandering of
mind than if we give ourselves to prayer without having had time previously
for meditation. I dwell so particularly on this point because of the immense
spiritual profit and refreshment I am conscious of having derived from
it myself, and I affectionately and solemnly beseech all my fellow believers
to ponder this matter. By the blessing of God, I ascribe to this mode
and help and strength which I have had from God to pass in peace through
deeper trials, in various ways, than I had ever had before; and after
having now above fourteen years tried this way I can most fully, in the
fear of God, commend it. In addition to this I generally read, after family
prayer, larger portions of the Word of God, when I still pursue my practice
of reading regularly onward in the Holy Scriptures, sometimes in the New
Testament, and sometimes in the Old, and for more than twenty-six years
I have proved the blessedness of it. I take, also either then or at other
parts of the day, time more especially for prayer.
How
different, when the soul is refreshed and made happy early in the morning,
from what it is when without spiritual preparation, the service, the trials,
and the temptations of the day come upon one. May 9, 1841
George Muller (l805-1898) was converted from a life of self
indulgence in 1825 while a student in Prussia. In the years that followed
he founded the SCRIPTURAL KNOWLEDGE INSTITUTION and made a life's work
of establishing homes for the orphaned poor. His life was characterized
by his remarkable trust in God to supply the necessities of life for his
numerous dependents. Prayer was his lifeline, and he proved the life of
total dependence on God alone to be the practical, workable outcome of
the Christian life.
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